and the countdown begins

I can't believe it too.

Yesterday was supposed to be a day when we celebrated our long so awaited dinner with Jaine. Of course we had fun, gave out hearty laughs and most especially made new memories to laugh about in the future.

Then khadine stung me. "When are going to have your despedida party, Laur?", she asked. I wasn't able to answer the way I usually answer to those questions. I got tongue-tied about it, answered her that I wouldn't like to have one, but in the end we decided I would celebrate a "last party" with them.

I couldn't help it. This is really it. I'm really leaving Cebu.

Please, let me just deny this fact. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to face it.

Please don't let me.

Depression seeps in.